in honor of ron

My brother Zach came up with this AWESOME idea for a fundraiser for the Cancer Association locally and we are doing it in honor of my stepdad whose nickname was "Stamps". I hope you all can attend this amazing event and help to spread the word for this great cause. We will be having a silent auction, celebrity bartenders (local celebrities of course), 50/50, etc. AND Keeli's band will be playing so of course it will be an amazing time! I hope you can all make it and help me to tell others about it! Thanks in advance!

:)

3 LOVEly years

Wednesday will be me and my amazing hubcaps 3 year wedding anniversary. Too bad I have parent-teacher conferences til 730 that night and the next night. So tonight we are going to the movies and tomorrow night to Popeye's!! (and for those of you that don't know, it is not popeyes chicken. its a yummy chop house!)

3 years ago tonight, we were making big signs for our camo bus that said HONK FOR THE HOLSHOUSERS! what a fun bus! then we went out that night (me, Mary, Anna, Tyson, Tony, and Jake). I believe we were the only people at the bar and man did we have a BLAST!!! what wonderful friends we are blessed with!

Our rehearsal dinner was pretty radical. My wonderful sister-in-law had beautiful invites sent out for the dinner and that night her and her hub presented us with gorgeous champagne flutes. My brother-in-law is a very talented glass blower and made us these glasses with our initials as the stem of the glass! what a thoughtful gift and wonderful keepsake! After dinner of course we had to go uptown for a few drink. I didn't stay out too late and my bff Mary came home to snuggle with me. Hub promised he wouldn't be out too late and he was going to stay at his aunt's. At 3 am Mary and I jump out of bed (and out of our skin) to 2 screaming crazy boys in the house!! Oh trav and tyson always know how to have fun!! So I guess I did really see my husband on my wedding day before we got married. oops!

My wedding day/night was amazing! So fun and filled with love. But I've gotta be honest, its all kinda a blur. Now is that b/c I was the queen of the night and busy with so much, or was it b/c I didn't think my xanax was working and so I took more until I had about 5 in me before 1 pm? who will ever know. at least I have photography and footage in case I forgot something :)

But even after all of that, the best was yet to come. Our wedding and all the events leading up to it were amazing, but I don't think it beats life after that. Our honeymoon was amazing! Is it just me or when you go on vaca with your hub/so do you just feel so amazingly connected with that person? all the stresses of life not in sight and completely out of mind. just love all day, everyday (and no, not in just a perverted way). I think thats why we love traveling so much together. but even after the honeymoon, things just continued to become more amazing. you know on your wedding day you don't think you could be more in love than you are then, but its not true. its only gets better and more fabulous! we continued to grow in our lives together. we both got new jobs a few months after we married. not even a year later we bought our first home together. of course we have been continue to spoil our baby puppies along the way as well. this past year so much has happened to us as a couple and as individuals, while trying to start a family, and we continue to grow together which is amazing. I am so thankful to God for leading Tyson into my life that night at Witt beer tent 5 years ago! Life without him would be pretty darn boring! I love you LOML!!!! xoxoxo

where is waldo?

http://www.iamtheface.org/?page_id=2570

http://www.iamtheface.org/?page_id=2901

the names page is really hard to find the '4 holshouser babies'. the first person to find both gets a big pat on the back :)

National Pregnancy/Infant Loss Awareness Day

Today I remember my 4 little babies gone too soon. My sign is blue because we know our 4th child was a boy. He was our only child we ever saw on the u/s machine and had a take home picture of. The only child's heartbeat we saw fluttering away on the screen. The only child's heartbeat we heard beating away. We miss all of our babies SO much and are devastated they are not here with us today. Please support this day and help to raise awareness to society. It is so hard feeling SO alone with no one to talk to. I don't ever want someone else who goes through this to feel the same way.

this weekend will be so much fun

tomorrow-pasketti factory and casino. dressing up cute + cocktails is always fun.

saturday-girls night in at my house. movies, popcorn, sodie pop, and a plethora of candy. yummo!

sunday-winery wedding shower at the same time as a little mermaid bday party. 2 things i love so i can't miss either.

looking forward to fun this weekend! although lets hope i dont break down crying watching the back up plan with my friends saturday. maybe that was the wrong choice for dana right now :)

friday is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day

october 15th is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. the whole month of october is actually pregnancy and infant loss remembrance month. here are a few websites with some info on walks, activities, items to purchase to raise awareness, and to donate (iamtheface) for support and resources for parents who have lost a child. you can even add the "iamtheface supporter" logo to your facebook or twitter pic if you dare. i know its so taboo :) even more the reason to spread the word and raise awareness for mommas looking for help but they don't know where to reach out to. please consider supporting this is any way you choose. even in your thoughts! love to all!

http://www.october15th.com/

http://www.iamtheface.org/

busy busy busy

i have been so busy every night after work with meetings, parties, errands, etc. i kinda like it though... i feel productive. the month of october is very busy. halloween party, girls night at my house, showers, bday parties, 3 year anniversary :), reception, and other random nights out with friends. before i know it the new year will be here. i think im kinda looking forward to a fresh new year and put this crazy year behind me (although i said that last year after my 1st m/c). its crazy this coming january will be the 3rd january we have been trying to make a TAKE HOME baby. i feel like im sitting still while everyone elses lives are racing past me. im gonna enjoy the relaxation while i can. i get to have nights out often still, nights in often watching movies in peace and quiet, sleep in or at least lay in bed til noon on the weekends (and yes i actually do this b/c i can :) ), spontaneous day trips with hub to a winery or with the friend or fam, many more things i can think of later :) i have to remind myself of all these perks. well now im off to do a little cleaning up around the house in my pretty new green shoes that just arrived at my doorstep before watching my shows! have a great week everyone!! xo

shit on the ground, shit on the ground. im gagging like a fool with the shit on the ground.

still gagging. a second grader apparently "infamous" for having terd episodes (the secretary informs me) pulled a terd from her butt and threw it on my floor today. then steps in it and other students step in it. it takes me awhile to figure out what the smell is b/c why would a normal functioning second grader do that. the janitors did their job but i still feel like they need to call in a professional cleaning team to disinfect my whole room. im so grossed out right now. i can't wash my hands enough even though i wasn't close to touching the shit. then i go to the jr high and the science teacher shows me his mouse infestation in his closet. more shit EVERYWHERE! on all the science supplies.... why do i feel like my school needs to be shut down right now? im going to continue to gag the rest of the night and get some major cleaning supplies to bring with me tomorrow. yuck o!!!! needless to say, it was a shitty day. ha!

Go G

so for awhile i have watched giuliana rancic and bill on their show. although our stories were different (hers infertility, mine m/c) i felt her pain sooo much seeing her cry on her show. for months ive noticed she is always filming in chicago as you all may have noticed. i keep telling tyson, "i wonder if shes pregnant". i google it and no new info since spring... just about her being bold and honest about infertility-GO G!!! but today has explained why... today on the view she shared a very personal experience. i feel her pain even more and admire her for being public with this experience and EDUCATING others about this struggle. she tried every route and lastly ivf. it ended in m/c. if you notice, 2 other of the women on the stage have went through this and know how ABSOLUTELY difficult a loss of a child can be. listening to her explain her loss at the same time as mine and results are the same as mine was indescribable. difficult but hopeful seeing her so positive. i am so proud of her. being a "celebrity", she can tell others of her struggle and help others to be hopeful. my heart goes out to her though this looooong road and difficult experience. but i am thankful for her hopefulness that is encouraging to me and others. (you probably have to copy and paste... and they are about half way through the episode). lots of love to all!

http://abc.go.com/watch/the-view/SH559080/VD5589439/the-view-101