tattooooo

so ive been wanting to get a tattoo and now i think i am getting 2 wednesday and an ear piercing. kinda random. and i might be having a few other people getting tattoos with me... :) yipee

the exciting conference call

just as i figured, the conference call wasn't anything i didn't already know. she just said all tests are fine so try again when im ready. miss pessimistic that i am, i had to ask, "so what if it happens again". she just said we would do a d/c asap and test the tissue b/c there is still a 50% chance that a loss would be from a chromosomal defect even though we aren't carriers. so although we want to be positive going into another pregnancy, that isn't so easy. she also said she will put me on progesterone after i ovulate. may not help, but doesn't hurt. i am hoping for oral meds this time though :) but i wont complain either way. from what i read in the past, you start it the day after ovulate but stop the day before you are supposed to start your period, unless you find out you are pregnant you continue. sounds complicated, but im glad i get to start it earlier (at 2 weeks pregnant), rather than in the past when I have started at 4-5 weeks pregnant.

so ive been thinking... my specialist is really nice, but sometimes its frustrating feeling like no one knows whats going on. I had started to read a couple books that I ordered months ago, but got distracted with the house project. One is called Coming to Term, and it discusses how drs treat miscarriages like infertility. So they run similar tests that really don't have to do with things that cause m/c. My dr did even tell me that in the medical field, they do not actually know what causes m/c, but they look at things that COULD cause it and try to fix those. So it is frustrating, but since science can't even solve my problem, there is even more reason to trust in God! :) The other book I got was Silent Sorority. It talks about women WITHOUT children-rarely heard of. how society assume all women have children and how to conquer moving forward with your life without the things you have always dreamt of and hurdling the common questions that i used to ask and many others ask, such as "when are you gonna have kids?" I HATE THIS QUESTION!! I probably didn't think much of it before, but now when i get asked that question not I turn red, wonder what others around me who know my situation are thinking, and hope that someday I won't have people ask me that question anymore. I am more hopeful lately... even if I do have to go through many more losses. My journey is only making me stronger, more thankful, and closer with God. It will all be worth it in the end, baby or no baby. I've came this far in life growing through all my experiences and I will make it through this too! Have a wonderous week all!! love love

in the clear

so we got our final blood test results back and everything is fine!!! so it means we have the correct number of chromosomes and they are shaped correctly, which i assume means we don't have to do invitro fertilization which makes me super happy!! we have a phone conference with the dr wednesday and im sure she will just say there is nothing medically that they have found that is causing the miscarriages so try try again. of course my question is, what if it happens again. i know everyone thinks i should just be worry-free when trying again but thats obviously is not simple.

i had a nice weekend away. i went camping! although my legs are fried to a crisp and covered in skeeter bites, it was worth it. we road bikes, golfed, made lots of yummy food, and played games. now ive gotta take out all our drawers in our cabinets and clean the kitchen b/c our countertops come tomorrow. yipee. happy sundee people.

summertime!

Ahhhh! I love summer! I love having so much time to workout, get stuff done around the house, golf, read, swim, and cook! Brent finished yesterday with the house... but we are far from being done. My brothers are going to hang the lights hopefully within the next few weeks, I have fill in all the nail holes and paint all the trim and doors and other touch-ups, and the countertop, sink, and dishwasher will be in next week. I'm having trouble finding motivation to finish up with my painting and cleaning.... I just want a day on the couch :) thats what I'm used to summer being about.

I am still anxiously awaiting the arrival of our genetic testing results. I've been checking the mail as soon as it gets here everyday. If it isn't here by Friday I am going to call :)

I hope everyone is having a great summer!!

chromosome test: check!

We finally got the chromosome test done today and I'm already anxiously awaiting the results! but it will be about 10 days before we get the results. Lets hope our chromosomes make it to north carolina safely and on time and we don't have to go in again!!

Summer break is already making me tired! I get so lazy when I'm on break. I loooove sleeping in, which really just makes me more tired!! :) But I am not enjoying my contractor banging on everything. Poor tyce has had to deal with this longer than I have! But we are approaching the end soon I believe! Hopefully 2 weeks I'm shooting for! Well I'm off to my summer job #2! Thank God its only an hour out of my week :) Have a great week all!!

holiday weekend

So here is my life lately: We were approved for our genetic testing. So friday we were at the hospital for over an hour b/c they didn't know what blood test to do. Then after figuring it out, they decided they couldn't do it b/c it has to make it to north carolina in 2 days and it wouldn't with the holiday weekend. So we are now getting it done Tuesday morning. I am also having a b2 glycoprotein test also??? We visited my uncle in the hospital while we were waiting. (ps springfield hospital released him and he is home taking meds. glad no heart surgery!) We ran errands in springfield, then I went to my moms for supper and out to the club for drinks. Saturday the appliances were delivered, dustin finished the lights, and our cabinets were finished. I went to a wedding reception and got to visit with jayme. Today I am gonna try to get all the stuff out of the bedrooms and put it all back in cabinets. I am so ready for this house project to be done. Next week will be busy with appointments and house stuff still. Then the following week I start back doing summer school. :( I always regret choosing to do summer school. I keep saying, I won't do it next year b/c I'll have kids. Maybe next year I will really be able to use that excuse. Hopefully I can start working out again next week and get back to feeling 'normal'. I hope everyone is having a great weekend. happy 5 year anni to heather and dustin. and much love to my dad. its crazy its been 5 years without you!! xo

slow as a snail

so i really like my specialist, but their laid back time schedule drives me crazy. she just called me today to tell me the results about my blood work i had a month ago that I already knew the results for b/c i had a copy sent to me the same week i had it done. then she asks if i have heard from insurance about my genetic testing (I am thinking-you are supposed to be letting me know!!). And ps I told her nurse monday to PLEASE call me as soon as they find out about the genetic testing so we can do it asap. the nurse said they will call me as soon as they find out. so i decided to call insurance today and they said yeah we sent a letter to them last week approving it. grrrrrrr!! if my dr's office was on top of it we could have possibly had the test done this week and maybe "tried" this month! so now you better believe once i give my chromosomes to them I will be calling every day to see if they got the results. and I will have the hospital send me a copy again so I can know sooner than a lot later. so i know im complaining, and i love my dr, but when you have been trying a long time to have baby, every month counts!!! after she gave me my tests results she says so are you gonna try this month.... she confuses me b/c i thought she had agreed that we should wait until after the genetic testing. im just confused right now and pissy that no one is on top of shit!!!

But on another note... SCHOOLS OUT!!! Well almost. tomorrow is a institute day. i am playing a victim in a shooting scenario we have. then we have our principals retirement party tomorrow night. then friday we only have to be there 2 hours. so silly. i am excited to have one thing off my plate and get this house project done soon hopefully. the cabinets will be installed tomorrow and we will have appliances this weekend. the only thing we will have to wait on is the countertop for almost 2 weeks :( so that means no sink in the kitchen or dishwasher still either. and then brent has to start on the other bathroom. but besides that, we should just have lights and touching up paint. i need to pick shutters and a front door but i really havent thought much about that stuff yet. hopefully by my bday we will be completely done and be completely done with baby testing and have results back. i want a little relaxation on my summer break :) oh and we are going on a road trip this summer to south dakota and colorado and wherever else the hlshsrs mobile takes us. happy summer break everyone!!!