cabin

this is our specific cabin we are staying in:

http://www.mountainchalets.com/Rentals/unit_ATOP.aspx

all the cabins are so cheap and really nice. it would be fun to go back with a group of people sometime. they have everything you need for cooking and grilling out too. im so excited :)

summer laziness

not much new here in my world. got a cute little tattoo yesterday. thinking about all the stuff I need to be doing around my house and not doing it. ahh gotta love summer break laziness! but I have been working out still. I ran 3 miles today woot woot. I have to since I'm signed up for the 5k in Nokomis July 10. Running is killing me though. I can do a little under 2 miles and feel good. I hate running over 3 miles and feeling like I wish my leg would break so it will be over. I wanna start a 2 mile race for lazy people like me. I could maybe win something like that. And I'm not supposed to have any tight clothes or anything rubbing this tat. Its kinda impossible on your hip. Oh well, it will survive.

tonight I have a retirement party for my principal at the KC Hall and my husband ditched me for work... imagine that! then tomorrow I have A LOT to do! Lacey's baby shower real quick like, Mila's 1st bday part in STL real quick like, then get back for my cousin's reception real quick like.... again, all by myself. My husband worked his 2 days off this week and in 2 weeks he is working his 2 days off that week too. A good friend is coming in from out of state and I am throwing a dinner party when he is gone. He pretty much works everyday of his life! I think people think I'm joking when I say I'm married b/c no one ever sees him. The family at the wedding I am going to this weekend hasn't ever even met him!!! How f-ing sad! Thats my husband-on his own plan. But of course I still love that man!

now off to get a pork chop for lunch and some spray paint for a gun?? OH and we aren't going to colorado anymore. We booked a cabin in the Smokies :) We are so excited! and I have my hub all to myself for a whole week!! have a great weekend all! xo

tattooooo

so ive been wanting to get a tattoo and now i think i am getting 2 wednesday and an ear piercing. kinda random. and i might be having a few other people getting tattoos with me... :) yipee

the exciting conference call

just as i figured, the conference call wasn't anything i didn't already know. she just said all tests are fine so try again when im ready. miss pessimistic that i am, i had to ask, "so what if it happens again". she just said we would do a d/c asap and test the tissue b/c there is still a 50% chance that a loss would be from a chromosomal defect even though we aren't carriers. so although we want to be positive going into another pregnancy, that isn't so easy. she also said she will put me on progesterone after i ovulate. may not help, but doesn't hurt. i am hoping for oral meds this time though :) but i wont complain either way. from what i read in the past, you start it the day after ovulate but stop the day before you are supposed to start your period, unless you find out you are pregnant you continue. sounds complicated, but im glad i get to start it earlier (at 2 weeks pregnant), rather than in the past when I have started at 4-5 weeks pregnant.

so ive been thinking... my specialist is really nice, but sometimes its frustrating feeling like no one knows whats going on. I had started to read a couple books that I ordered months ago, but got distracted with the house project. One is called Coming to Term, and it discusses how drs treat miscarriages like infertility. So they run similar tests that really don't have to do with things that cause m/c. My dr did even tell me that in the medical field, they do not actually know what causes m/c, but they look at things that COULD cause it and try to fix those. So it is frustrating, but since science can't even solve my problem, there is even more reason to trust in God! :) The other book I got was Silent Sorority. It talks about women WITHOUT children-rarely heard of. how society assume all women have children and how to conquer moving forward with your life without the things you have always dreamt of and hurdling the common questions that i used to ask and many others ask, such as "when are you gonna have kids?" I HATE THIS QUESTION!! I probably didn't think much of it before, but now when i get asked that question not I turn red, wonder what others around me who know my situation are thinking, and hope that someday I won't have people ask me that question anymore. I am more hopeful lately... even if I do have to go through many more losses. My journey is only making me stronger, more thankful, and closer with God. It will all be worth it in the end, baby or no baby. I've came this far in life growing through all my experiences and I will make it through this too! Have a wonderous week all!! love love

in the clear

so we got our final blood test results back and everything is fine!!! so it means we have the correct number of chromosomes and they are shaped correctly, which i assume means we don't have to do invitro fertilization which makes me super happy!! we have a phone conference with the dr wednesday and im sure she will just say there is nothing medically that they have found that is causing the miscarriages so try try again. of course my question is, what if it happens again. i know everyone thinks i should just be worry-free when trying again but thats obviously is not simple.

i had a nice weekend away. i went camping! although my legs are fried to a crisp and covered in skeeter bites, it was worth it. we road bikes, golfed, made lots of yummy food, and played games. now ive gotta take out all our drawers in our cabinets and clean the kitchen b/c our countertops come tomorrow. yipee. happy sundee people.

summertime!

Ahhhh! I love summer! I love having so much time to workout, get stuff done around the house, golf, read, swim, and cook! Brent finished yesterday with the house... but we are far from being done. My brothers are going to hang the lights hopefully within the next few weeks, I have fill in all the nail holes and paint all the trim and doors and other touch-ups, and the countertop, sink, and dishwasher will be in next week. I'm having trouble finding motivation to finish up with my painting and cleaning.... I just want a day on the couch :) thats what I'm used to summer being about.

I am still anxiously awaiting the arrival of our genetic testing results. I've been checking the mail as soon as it gets here everyday. If it isn't here by Friday I am going to call :)

I hope everyone is having a great summer!!

chromosome test: check!

We finally got the chromosome test done today and I'm already anxiously awaiting the results! but it will be about 10 days before we get the results. Lets hope our chromosomes make it to north carolina safely and on time and we don't have to go in again!!

Summer break is already making me tired! I get so lazy when I'm on break. I loooove sleeping in, which really just makes me more tired!! :) But I am not enjoying my contractor banging on everything. Poor tyce has had to deal with this longer than I have! But we are approaching the end soon I believe! Hopefully 2 weeks I'm shooting for! Well I'm off to my summer job #2! Thank God its only an hour out of my week :) Have a great week all!!