this weekend will be so much fun

tomorrow-pasketti factory and casino. dressing up cute + cocktails is always fun.

saturday-girls night in at my house. movies, popcorn, sodie pop, and a plethora of candy. yummo!

sunday-winery wedding shower at the same time as a little mermaid bday party. 2 things i love so i can't miss either.

looking forward to fun this weekend! although lets hope i dont break down crying watching the back up plan with my friends saturday. maybe that was the wrong choice for dana right now :)

friday is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day

october 15th is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. the whole month of october is actually pregnancy and infant loss remembrance month. here are a few websites with some info on walks, activities, items to purchase to raise awareness, and to donate (iamtheface) for support and resources for parents who have lost a child. you can even add the "iamtheface supporter" logo to your facebook or twitter pic if you dare. i know its so taboo :) even more the reason to spread the word and raise awareness for mommas looking for help but they don't know where to reach out to. please consider supporting this is any way you choose. even in your thoughts! love to all!

http://www.october15th.com/

http://www.iamtheface.org/

busy busy busy

i have been so busy every night after work with meetings, parties, errands, etc. i kinda like it though... i feel productive. the month of october is very busy. halloween party, girls night at my house, showers, bday parties, 3 year anniversary :), reception, and other random nights out with friends. before i know it the new year will be here. i think im kinda looking forward to a fresh new year and put this crazy year behind me (although i said that last year after my 1st m/c). its crazy this coming january will be the 3rd january we have been trying to make a TAKE HOME baby. i feel like im sitting still while everyone elses lives are racing past me. im gonna enjoy the relaxation while i can. i get to have nights out often still, nights in often watching movies in peace and quiet, sleep in or at least lay in bed til noon on the weekends (and yes i actually do this b/c i can :) ), spontaneous day trips with hub to a winery or with the friend or fam, many more things i can think of later :) i have to remind myself of all these perks. well now im off to do a little cleaning up around the house in my pretty new green shoes that just arrived at my doorstep before watching my shows! have a great week everyone!! xo

shit on the ground, shit on the ground. im gagging like a fool with the shit on the ground.

still gagging. a second grader apparently "infamous" for having terd episodes (the secretary informs me) pulled a terd from her butt and threw it on my floor today. then steps in it and other students step in it. it takes me awhile to figure out what the smell is b/c why would a normal functioning second grader do that. the janitors did their job but i still feel like they need to call in a professional cleaning team to disinfect my whole room. im so grossed out right now. i can't wash my hands enough even though i wasn't close to touching the shit. then i go to the jr high and the science teacher shows me his mouse infestation in his closet. more shit EVERYWHERE! on all the science supplies.... why do i feel like my school needs to be shut down right now? im going to continue to gag the rest of the night and get some major cleaning supplies to bring with me tomorrow. yuck o!!!! needless to say, it was a shitty day. ha!

Go G

so for awhile i have watched giuliana rancic and bill on their show. although our stories were different (hers infertility, mine m/c) i felt her pain sooo much seeing her cry on her show. for months ive noticed she is always filming in chicago as you all may have noticed. i keep telling tyson, "i wonder if shes pregnant". i google it and no new info since spring... just about her being bold and honest about infertility-GO G!!! but today has explained why... today on the view she shared a very personal experience. i feel her pain even more and admire her for being public with this experience and EDUCATING others about this struggle. she tried every route and lastly ivf. it ended in m/c. if you notice, 2 other of the women on the stage have went through this and know how ABSOLUTELY difficult a loss of a child can be. listening to her explain her loss at the same time as mine and results are the same as mine was indescribable. difficult but hopeful seeing her so positive. i am so proud of her. being a "celebrity", she can tell others of her struggle and help others to be hopeful. my heart goes out to her though this looooong road and difficult experience. but i am thankful for her hopefulness that is encouraging to me and others. (you probably have to copy and paste... and they are about half way through the episode). lots of love to all!

http://abc.go.com/watch/the-view/SH559080/VD5589439/the-view-101

but we still have hope

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

Albert Einstein - Definition of Insanity

perfect day

(you are thinking i am like a roller coaster-up and down and up and down. you are so correct!)

we had such a great night last night, but got home way too late for me. so we slept in til 1130, had breakfast, went for a nature walk, family visits, now couch time and naps before making apple crisp. isnt fall so wonderful!? i looove it! i wish every day was a weekend day. the stress of work and busy schedules and not seeing my hub get me down. but then the weekends are something i cherish! and we keep pretty busy!! i hope everyone is having a wonderful sunday :)

i love you tjh. thank you!!!!!!