hi im mrs tired pants

does anyone else always feel tired? i mean always. i never feel like i have energy. it doesnt help that today was pj day at school so i think it made me feel more tired. ive worked late every night this week as well. its nice to be home by 4 today and im gonna stay in these pjs til tomorrow. to do list by early tomorrow: clean everything in the house, make buggle snack thing, get stuff for green beanie casserole, order outside lights, and i think thats it for now but im sure ill find more to do before then. and my fav cousins are in town so im sure ill be hanging with them all weekend. i hope everyone has a fabulous pre-thanksgiving weekend! xo

merry thanksgiving!

dont the holidays just bring so much cheer?!! although i feel broke, i LOVE buying gifts for others! although i hope they truly like the gift b/c everything i buy i want for myself too! i have been in such a great mood after shopping lately. maybe its just the shopping that im addicted too? i have pretty much all my christmas shopping done. im getting ready to order more on llbean here in a second. tj and i were supposed to have a date night but he got a call out. so im enjoying alone time and shopping online and watching e!news. i cant wait til black friday. i think im only getting one gift that day for someone else but i am getting us a new flat screen tv :) ill be tackling people at 3 am for my lcd beauty. i hope everyone else is having lots of shopping fun!! xo

beer bread+asiago dip

if someone saw me eating right now they would probably think i look like a wild animal. im shoveling food down my throat with both hands like my husband has been starving me for weeks. disgusting. gym starts NEXT monday. until then i guess i will continue eating like there is no tomorrow! ah how i love food!!

dr tse

so i met my new ob/gyn today and i think we have a winner! (or at least i hope) my wonderful jenna recommended her and after some research i thought we should switch. and she is also a wash u-ian so i figured it couldnt hurt to have my specialist and ob out of the same place. i really did like my old dr but she just kinda seemed to not have a lot of experience with rpl (recurrent pregnancy loss) and my new dr specializes in it along with many other high risk pregnancy conditions. she told me that all the drs at that practice have had a m/c and i know my specialist has too. its crazy how common it is but no one talks about it. although they haven't been through multiple losses with no children, its nice to feel like the person treating you completely understands your pain. i started crying when she said "the moment you pee on that stick you become a mom." you mommies out there know its so true. your every move, thought, action, etc is based around your little baby you are growing inside. anyways..... she assured me that if/when we get pregnant and if/when we are released from the specialist within the first trimester, that she will see me every other week until im 20 weeks and can feel the baby moving all the time. im glad i wont have to wait a month b/w each appointment wondering if baby's heart is still beating. she even said if im having a bad week to just come in and they will do an u/s. this chick rocks for all these reasons. in the first trimester we will have to do "the first look" to see if there is anything chromosomally wrong with the baby through a special scan and maybe some bloodwork to see if we are "high risk". but hopefully we wont have to worry about being high risk and can just have a normal pregnancy. ha! if only this whole journey was that easy. in conclusion, my new dr is awesome and made me feel even more secure that i will be well taken care of. although no one can stop a m/c from happening, i feel like im surrounded by really educated professionals who will take care of me, hub, and future baby h. love love!

in honor of ron

My brother Zach came up with this AWESOME idea for a fundraiser for the Cancer Association locally and we are doing it in honor of my stepdad whose nickname was "Stamps". I hope you all can attend this amazing event and help to spread the word for this great cause. We will be having a silent auction, celebrity bartenders (local celebrities of course), 50/50, etc. AND Keeli's band will be playing so of course it will be an amazing time! I hope you can all make it and help me to tell others about it! Thanks in advance!

:)

3 LOVEly years

Wednesday will be me and my amazing hubcaps 3 year wedding anniversary. Too bad I have parent-teacher conferences til 730 that night and the next night. So tonight we are going to the movies and tomorrow night to Popeye's!! (and for those of you that don't know, it is not popeyes chicken. its a yummy chop house!)

3 years ago tonight, we were making big signs for our camo bus that said HONK FOR THE HOLSHOUSERS! what a fun bus! then we went out that night (me, Mary, Anna, Tyson, Tony, and Jake). I believe we were the only people at the bar and man did we have a BLAST!!! what wonderful friends we are blessed with!

Our rehearsal dinner was pretty radical. My wonderful sister-in-law had beautiful invites sent out for the dinner and that night her and her hub presented us with gorgeous champagne flutes. My brother-in-law is a very talented glass blower and made us these glasses with our initials as the stem of the glass! what a thoughtful gift and wonderful keepsake! After dinner of course we had to go uptown for a few drink. I didn't stay out too late and my bff Mary came home to snuggle with me. Hub promised he wouldn't be out too late and he was going to stay at his aunt's. At 3 am Mary and I jump out of bed (and out of our skin) to 2 screaming crazy boys in the house!! Oh trav and tyson always know how to have fun!! So I guess I did really see my husband on my wedding day before we got married. oops!

My wedding day/night was amazing! So fun and filled with love. But I've gotta be honest, its all kinda a blur. Now is that b/c I was the queen of the night and busy with so much, or was it b/c I didn't think my xanax was working and so I took more until I had about 5 in me before 1 pm? who will ever know. at least I have photography and footage in case I forgot something :)

But even after all of that, the best was yet to come. Our wedding and all the events leading up to it were amazing, but I don't think it beats life after that. Our honeymoon was amazing! Is it just me or when you go on vaca with your hub/so do you just feel so amazingly connected with that person? all the stresses of life not in sight and completely out of mind. just love all day, everyday (and no, not in just a perverted way). I think thats why we love traveling so much together. but even after the honeymoon, things just continued to become more amazing. you know on your wedding day you don't think you could be more in love than you are then, but its not true. its only gets better and more fabulous! we continued to grow in our lives together. we both got new jobs a few months after we married. not even a year later we bought our first home together. of course we have been continue to spoil our baby puppies along the way as well. this past year so much has happened to us as a couple and as individuals, while trying to start a family, and we continue to grow together which is amazing. I am so thankful to God for leading Tyson into my life that night at Witt beer tent 5 years ago! Life without him would be pretty darn boring! I love you LOML!!!! xoxoxo