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hi im mrs tired pants

does anyone else always feel tired? i mean always. i never feel like i have energy. it doesnt help that today was pj day at school so i think it made me feel more tired. ive worked late every night this week as well. its nice to be home by 4 today and im gonna stay in these pjs til tomorrow. to do list by early tomorrow: clean everything in the house, make buggle snack thing, get stuff for green beanie casserole, order outside lights, and i think thats it for now but im sure ill find more to do before then. and my fav cousins are in town so im sure ill be hanging with them all weekend. i hope everyone has a fabulous pre-thanksgiving weekend! xo

merry thanksgiving!

dont the holidays just bring so much cheer?!! although i feel broke, i LOVE buying gifts for others! although i hope they truly like the gift b/c everything i buy i want for myself too! i have been in such a great mood after shopping lately. maybe its just the shopping that im addicted too? i have pretty much all my christmas shopping done. im getting ready to order more on llbean here in a second. tj and i were supposed to have a date night but he got a call out. so im enjoying alone time and shopping online and watching e!news. i cant wait til black friday. i think im only getting one gift that day for someone else but i am getting us a new flat screen tv :) ill be tackling people at 3 am for my lcd beauty. i hope everyone else is having lots of shopping fun!! xo

beer bread+asiago dip

if someone saw me eating right now they would probably think i look like a wild animal. im shoveling food down my throat with both hands like my husband has been starving me for weeks. disgusting. gym starts NEXT monday. until then i guess i will continue eating like there is no tomorrow! ah how i love food!!

dr tse

so i met my new ob/gyn today and i think we have a winner! (or at least i hope) my wonderful jenna recommended her and after some research i thought we should switch. and she is also a wash u-ian so i figured it couldnt hurt to have my specialist and ob out of the same place. i really did like my old dr but she just kinda seemed to not have a lot of experience with rpl (recurrent pregnancy loss) and my new dr specializes in it along with many other high risk pregnancy conditions. she told me that all the drs at that practice have had a m/c and i know my specialist has too. its crazy how common it is but no one talks about it. although they haven't been through multiple losses with no children, its nice to feel like the person treating you completely understands your pain. i started crying when she said "the moment you pee on that stick you become a mom." you mommies out there know its so true. your every move, thought, action, etc is based around your little baby you are growing inside. anyways..... she assured me that if/when we get pregnant and if/when we are released from the specialist within the first trimester, that she will see me every other week until im 20 weeks and can feel the baby moving all the time. im glad i wont have to wait a month b/w each appointment wondering if baby's heart is still beating. she even said if im having a bad week to just come in and they will do an u/s. this chick rocks for all these reasons. in the first trimester we will have to do "the first look" to see if there is anything chromosomally wrong with the baby through a special scan and maybe some bloodwork to see if we are "high risk". but hopefully we wont have to worry about being high risk and can just have a normal pregnancy. ha! if only this whole journey was that easy. in conclusion, my new dr is awesome and made me feel even more secure that i will be well taken care of. although no one can stop a m/c from happening, i feel like im surrounded by really educated professionals who will take care of me, hub, and future baby h. love love!

in honor of ron

My brother Zach came up with this AWESOME idea for a fundraiser for the Cancer Association locally and we are doing it in honor of my stepdad whose nickname was "Stamps". I hope you all can attend this amazing event and help to spread the word for this great cause. We will be having a silent auction, celebrity bartenders (local celebrities of course), 50/50, etc. AND Keeli's band will be playing so of course it will be an amazing time! I hope you can all make it and help me to tell others about it! Thanks in advance!

:)