due date number 4

today is the due date of my little boy. its been a hard couple weeks anticipating this date. months since we lost him have been difficult as well with no success getting pregnant again on top of it all. its so difficult getting something pulled away from you that you have always dreamed and hoped for. like my new dr said to me, 'you become a mom the moment you pee on that stick.' its so true. for any of you that have been pregnant you know the moment you see that positive you make sure you are taking care of your little one inside of you the best you can. you even start planning things in your head. i am a mom. i might not have little ones running around my house, but i have carried 4 little beans in my belly. i am grateful for the time i got with them and hoping very soon i will carry a healthy baby full term with a live birth! so today im missing my little boy even more. i love you little guy!