relaxing weekend

I had a much needed relaxing weekend!! It actually felt long for once too! I had a great time with my old roomies! We just went out to eat, shopped, relaxed, and lots of laughing! Can't wait to do it again!

Sunday wasn't as relaxing... I have had a headache since then! I am trying to get everything order and picked out in a few days time for our house. Today Lowes is coming to measure for cabinets and hopefully we will be able to order those and our countertops Wednesday. Tomorrow the flooring guy is coming to measure and I hope to order those tomorrow night. On top of that we have 2 drs appts, I have a lot of meetings at school and kindergarten screenings, and my second job tonight! I feel a little overwhelmed with lists and reminders in my phone! I can't keep everything straight and where I am supposed to be when! It will all work out and be great though. I cannot wait to get our house finished :) I am sooo excited!

So currently my mind is on overload with house stuff, which is probably a good thing rather than drs appts and pregnancy stuff. I hope everyone has a nice week! Mine might have to be filled with wine nights every night this week to get me through :) xoxoxoxo

ahhh (sigh of relief)

what a great day this has turned out to be! i started the day in pain still and feeling down that the sac hadn't passed. i had a little breakdown session with some co-workers because i was fearing d&c would be my only option. we had birthday lunch day and i started getting really dizzy but kept chugging along. A few minutes later i passed it!! well i'm pretty sure at least. hopefully the ultrasound will show we are all clear next tuesday. i'm still extremely tired and i'm sure the cramping will continue, but the worst is over with (i hope).

then i came home to sit on my bum with my hunny and we got good news that we are going to get to started on the house remodel in a week!! whoa!! guess we need to get those cabinets and flooring ordered and all the appliances picked out and bathroom stuff picked out and shutters picked out and everything else i'm forgetting picked out! so we gotta get moving but i'm so excited because he seems like he can do everything i want... and its going to be pretty cheap (we think).

so today has turned out to be a pretty okay day! God is good! tomorrow i'm off to ISU to have a relaxing weekend with the roomies! hope everyone is having a fab week!

the 4 dreaded pills

so appt #578 didn't go so well today. let me start off with telling you that last night I was up all night with bad cramps and then this morning I passed like 3 clots and I have red blood now (not brown-which means old blood) so I totally thought I passed more of it and we were on the way to a positive outcome! so I was in a great mood heading up to the dr and she sticks that dildo looking thing in me and BAM... the whole fucking sac is still in there just chugging along. she said it looked about the same size so I'm glad it isn't still growing. but why in the hell am I passing clots and some that are pretty good size?? they said its my lining shedding. thats a lot of lining if you ask me. so dr kind of seems to be leaning toward d&c, but she says it won't hurt to wait longer and see if it will happen on its own. to me, I am already bleeding and cramping (which together mean m/c) so my body is doing what it needs to... I guess its just slower than most people. so she sent me home with some more induction meds and now I'm laying horizontal for the next few hours praying for this to come. next appt is monday for yet another u/s (let me remind you these are almost $200 each time I get one and I am having to take off work all the time-little stressful). then wednesday is my specialist appt. til then I will be in a hole having a pity party. I am going to try to make it to my roommate reunion but don't feel so energetic! hope everyone has a good week.

my hubby is a star

http://www.fox2now.com/news/ktvi-tactical-officer-rush-troy-home-041210,0,5413197.story

he's the one in the fisherman looking hat. he is in there like 5 times. there's a good shot of him kneeling with his sniper rifle. :)

update

Medicine doesn't seem to have worked like they said it would. I had pretty heavy cramps on and off 2 hours after inserting the meds and just like period cramps for the next day and half. Only spotting the first 24 hours. TMI-When I woke up sunday morning and wiped, I had a clot the size of a golfball, but no pain or anything. Just brown discharge since and no red blood. So they are concerned I didn't have a period of time with intense pain and passing things that I didn't pass it. But I think my body is just different b/c it was similar to my other 2 m/c. So wednesday I go for another u/s (the sonographers are my best friends by now) and hopefully we will see nothing in there! If so, I really have no idea. I hope another dose of cytotec but who knows b/c my specialist appt is only a week away and I'm not back to normal like she wanted. But seriously, a D&C isn't gonna make my body "normal" either so I don't think we should go with that option. Besides, I have a roommate reunion this weekend at ISU!! I can't miss out on Von Maur shopping, food, and time with my girls! Well I will let you all know how wednesday goes and see what happens from there! P.S. I am really excited to meet Dr. Keller next week and get things figured out. I feel so positive about going there! Have a great week all!! Love love

my life today

Man have I been exhausted this week!! It has been hard to wake up this week after that short break I had! Can't wait to sleep in (hopefully) Saturday!

Nothing new in my life since the last time I posted. Still 'pregnant'. I've been losing the boob soreness the past few days so I assume my levels are dropping. I start the meds tomorrow the "induce labor", as the nurse put it today. Yikes! Hopefully this will all be over soon!

On another pregnancy note, how funny was it when the chick on 16 & pregnant peed her pants! Hahaha! Don't get me wrong, I feel bad for her. My friend who is pregnant right now talks about when she sneezes she tickles a little and is petrified of full blown peeing her pants. I do feel bad for them but at the same time it is a little funny!

Well I better finish making my grilled chicken and 4 cheese ravioli before lover boy gets home! Have a wonderful weekend all!

Life is good!

Today has just been a wonderful day and we are only halfway through it. Things have been kinda sad around here lately, but one thing that always cheers me up is my husband. With so much that has happened in my life, he has always been there. When I get sad about things, I stop and think about how truly lucky I am to have him. We got married because we are best friends and love each other to no end. If we are blessed with a few little munchkins running around that would be amazing. But if not, we have each other and thats all I need. Today we went golfing on this sunshiny day, having crazy fun, now off to the winery to relax outside some more. Days like this make me realized how blessed I truly am! Thank you God for giving me such a wonderful man, and thank you Tyson for being my superhero through everything in life! You are absolutely amazing!! I love you.

also.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMEE!! We love you so much!