first crunkin post

in advance, please excuse grammatical errors. I will try my hardest to type my bestestest :) (haha funny joke) sooo today was my sonohyst. holy ouch. If I needed Tyce at any appt it was this one... and unfortunately, he wasn't there. I always feel bad waking him up on his work day to go so I thought he could miss this appt. wrong choice. i screamed and bawled. it was absolutely the worst pain ever. worse than a colposcopy (which is a biopsy), and maybe momentarily worst than my labor/miscarriage long drawn out contraction pains. then i realized why... when the sonographer told the dr "hey you are in too deep." before this started the dr told me there was a chance of damage to the cervix or bleeding. when she started cleaning my cervix that was bad enough someone jabbing at your organs, making you jump out of your skin. But then she said now you will feel cramping and i see the foot long catheter thing going in and feeling the worst pain of my entire life.... in that moment i wish i would have had my husbands hand there to hold or to wipe my tears, or have taken the offer from my sister to be with me. i thought i would be fine. boy was i wrong. after the catheter was in and she stuck the sono-wand in, we see a perfectly shaped uterus, which is great b/c she said there is nothing showing cause of m/c. but there was a huge lump looking thing.... oh not to worry.. she just thinks its my tissue torn from her going to deep. well holy fuck, bitch, why do you think i was dying? i dont know how many apologies i got and how many "are you okay"'s. but she said it isn't damaging and nurse mary has helped convince me i am not permanently damaged. sorry but at this point, i am nervous that any little mishap can hinder my baby chances. so they took like 5 min to discuss, "is this a polyp? no, i don't think so. I think its from going to deep. blah blah fucking blah" so decision was lump is her tearing my tissue. pissed about that 1st of all, and 2ndly, what if it is a polyp or some other weird lump.... helllllloooo lets follow up. i know i should just trust them. and besides, i dont wanna go through that pain again anyways. so todays appt was good new but bad pain. no matter what, we are thankful and feel blessed for positive news and great drs through this journey. sleep well all. i know i will :)

i miss you blog

I feel like I never get to blog anymore. We are so busy every night with house stuff!!! Our flooring will be complete tomorrow! It has been nice to get furniture back in its place and have TV back! I have had to make myself schedules for each day for the next 2 weeks b/c I have so much going on with school, planning baby showers, helping with retirement parties, drs appts, and sooooo much house stuff!

Tomorrow I only work a 1/2 day b/c I have my sonohyst and its great b/c I can hopefully get some house and baby shower stuff while I'm off. My sis is keeping me company and going along if I need a driver for the way back. The nurse said they give me some meds to help with pain, but I don't think it should be too awful bad.

Saturday I am running to Springfield to look at tile for the bathroom and kitchen backsplashes. Then coming back to hopefully do the kitchen lights. Heather and I will try to help the boys out with the electrical work :) Then I am hoping to take Tyson to see MacGruber. He loves that dude.

Hopefully Sunday can be a day of rest or golf or something that doesn't cause my brain to do much thinking! I'm worn out!!! I will keep you all updated on my appt tomorrow. Still waiting on insurance approval for genetic testing.... I will be so happy when I receive that phone call saying we can do our final test!! This has been a long few months. Love to all.

busy weekend

I had a busy weekend, but very enjoyable! Tyson and I had a painting party Friday night. We had a fleetwood cd on repeat and got all the painting done! Then relaxed on the porch with the pups.

We also started our new medication (just a round of antibiotics the specialist wanted us to take as a precaution) and it didn't bother our stomachs the first night b/c we had ate a little before taking it. Well we read on there to take it on an empty stomach, which is so odd to take medicine without food. So the next morning we followed the directions and took the pills on an empty stomach and I started working on the house and he went to the gym to work out. As I was on the ladder I felt extremely nauseous and decided to eat something b/c it had been about an hour. Tyson calls and asks if he isn't supposed to workout with the medicine b/c he became extremely nauseous 10 minutes into running and vomited. yucko! So we are still trying to figure out how to time this medicine and survive the next 10 days on it. Tyka said it is less effective if taken with food. And I want it to help with whatever its supposed to help with so I guess we will follow the rules.

Saturday we went to his dad's house early to relax since we don't have tv, and we watched a movie. Raymee and Mila showed up in the afternoon and we had Reid's bday dinner that night and enjoyed visiting.

Today we had bfast at Tyson's dad's (mmm pancakes). Then I had Jayme's baby shower and got to see her super cute belly. Then planned Tyka's baby shower at my mom's. Heather and Dustin came over to see if he could figure out my kitchen light situation and I think he can :) After that I just went back to my mom's to watch a movie.

It felt like a really long weekend, but I actually felt pretty relaxed for once. The flooring gets started tomorrow and hopefully will be done by Thursday or Friday. Friday afternoon I have my sonohyst. It will just get a better look at my uterus to make sure everything is shaped normal. She said they just give me 800 mg of ibuprofen. So I am hoping it will be fine to drive myself and its not too painful. I hope everyone has a great, stress-free week! I am really going to try to achieve that this week! xo

finally a good nights sleep!!

I felt like I actually slept good for the first time in awhile! Maybe its that codeine! :) I started my period and was anticipating reeeeeeally bad cramps-but haven't really felt any pain. My last cycle after a m/c was extremely painful so I assumed this one would be worse. Its crazy to think I have not had a period since December!! I actually forgot what it feels like. All week I thought I was pregnant. I took like 4 tests- 1 of them was even this morning. Even though I had my period, I was convinced the feelings I was having was another pregnancy!! Thank God its not! I am excited to hopefully get all these tests done! Now I can schedule my dye uterus sono thingy and I am hoping our genetic testing will be approved by then so we can get it all done in 1 visit. It will probably be next week or the following-it has to be within so many days of my period.

On another note, we got all the painting done except one small wall! I was pissed when we ran out of paint!! Hopefully I can get it done really fast today after school though. The flooring is coming today to acclimate. Then will be installed next week. I am excited b/c I wanna get everything put back into place. Even if we don't have a kitchen, it would be nice to have somewhere to sit and to have a tv back :)

Plans for the weekend:
Friday-picking up me and tjs new meds we have to take and starting that, painting, jayme is visiting, then probably resting my sore body-painting is a hard job!

Saturday-cleaning (just my bathroom. there is nowhere else I can clean), getting this lighting situation figured out (whole other story that I am pissed about. don't take on a house project-it sucks!!), and reid's bday party and getting to see raymee and mila!!

Sunday-jayme's baby shower and mother's day/gma's bday at my aunt brenda's

I really need to go to lowes and finalize hardware and countertops but don't see that happening. wow my life is so exciting with our house project taking over-aren't you jealous? :)

i dont even know what im typing right now

i am so tired and none of my muscles work. i have been a painting and furniture moving machine the past few days. its been crazy around here. i haven't kept up on pictures, but i feel like we have no house. we dont have a washer or dryer or anything in the kitchen, no floors, no furniture to sit on, and the list goes on and on. i have to wash things in the bathtub. i cant find anything we have packed away. we eat what snack stuff we have in our room. and now we have no tv so im really lost and sad all my dvr items are gone. it was really hard to unplug that machine :( but i am reallllly glad to get the painting done this week. i just gotta keep my eye on the prize. we will still be shuffling around a lot more furniture when the flooring guy comes next week. but after that hopefully we can get some furniture back and hopefully they will start the kitchen the following week.... considering our cabinets were delivered 2 weeks early and are sitting in the garage. although once we get a kitchen, we won't have a countertop for 2 weeks, but hopefully by my birthday we will be back to normal. lights being installed tomorrow and thats about it. i feel like im in a trance from exhaustion. i hope everyone is having a great week and has a great weekend! I know mine will be a busy one! xo

they forgot another vial of blood

so not cool. the only reason they realized its missing is because i called to see why they havent called me with my results from 2 weeks ago!!!! great-another arm prick. hopefully no fainting. and i told these mofoes i am not paying each time i come in for their mistakes! gotta love hah.

Day one of remodel

For those of you who are familiar with my house, here is a pic from today. The kitchen and living room are one! It is kind of confusing b/c the pic is backwards since I took it with my computer. So imagine you are looking in a mirror :) At least I still have a stove!