other random pics

This is when we went to the apple orchard in the fall.

3 years of love!

Chicago freezing-ass-cold Bears game!

Christmas eve. We are hot!!

Christmas morn

workout party

so ive been working my body out! and it feels so great! ive not been back to running b/c my knees have been hurting but just long distance walks and a lot of weights and toning. i cant even breathe without my muscles hurting. its gonna suck after the new year when the gym is PACKED with people though. and of course we all know i wanna be pregnant, but it sucks b/c as soon as i do the dr says feet up for 12 weeks! working out is not the issue in my eyes so if i do become pregnant im still gonna try to keep doing light walking and maybe a little yoga. and if i can sneak by, a little light weight lifting. im enjoying these pipes. plus ill need them for when little babe gets here. right now i can hold a baby for about 3 minutes before my arms start shaking of fatigue. i know im a wimp :) renee and i did this kick ass class this morning... aaaand we were the only people there. then renee left for work and i was all alone. it felt like a personal training session. my legs are still shaking. well im gonna stretch out and read my new cookbook before i meet kimmy girl at the gym for a walk. (do you like how i referred to my mom, tyk?) happy day all! oh this a disgusting pic i promised my sis i would post. gotta love photo booth. i know we look mentally impaired and deformed :)

first day of vaca... sort of

although we started holiday break last week, we have been so busy that it feels like today is the first day. but i kept busy today too. i ran to litchfield to get new glasses and contacts (my eyes keep getting worse :( ) buuuut too bad the dr isnt in on mondays. so i ran all over to businesses to give out stamp out cancer donation letters. im quite excited that litchfield jewelry is giving some cute stuff! thursday ill head back out to do some more begging and pick up some of the items promised. and ill have my sis with me so it always helps to have another body with you to do something like that. people dont wanna say no to TWO pretty faces :) so after that i met my sis at the gym and did an awesome new class and my body is feeling it! tj and i just made some yummy steaks and salad. and now shower before watching zombieland-thanks for the recommendation dan!! im sure we will have to have homemade popcorn too :) ahhh why cant every day be a holiday break!

dana's life today

today was an off day for me. not sure what triggers got me to thinking baby thoughts... maybe just another year coming to an end. and 2 years of baby making complete with a lot of scary stories in between. i think also a relative (who i love so much) is in town and we were do like literally the same day and we would both have little boys. her pregnancy is still moving along great, and well you know my life story. i kind of dodged seeing her this weekend. i know thats might sound mean, but i always think what if i just broke down in tears in front of her. she might think im a mega biotch. my bff jaym would cry with me if i cried when she was pregnant. i dont think everyone is as understanding as that, so avoiding situations are sometimes easier for me.

my eyes filled up with tears today in church praying so hard for a little miracle. i guess some days are just more emotional than others. and its hard on me and tj too. i know guys handle things different-like avoidance. so i try to minimize baby talk around him. but some days we are on the same page of talking about things. like the other day he said something about a hopeful future baby being born on his bday, then tonight when i brought up baby stuff it was a major no no. ugh. why does this all have to be so hard? im just as sick of all of this as he is.

the past few months ive done what im supposed to do and have faith when you absolutely have no idea of the outcome. and be hopeful in a situation that has let you down multiple times. being positive sucks and today i dont wanna be that. it is a lot harder to be positive and convince yourself all these great things will happen when reality has shown you quite the opposite. so today im going to not smile and say "oh it will happen when its supposed to. God has a plan. Think positive and it will happen." bullshit. I say "this fucking sucks and quit telling me things that you can't promise. im pissed and id like to stay that way for at least tonight." :) goodnight blogtown

another post from my fellow rpl-ers

Cut this out and paste it in a word document. Then, print it out. Put it in your purse, wallet, pocket any where you can have immediate access to it. When needed, escape to a bathroom and pull out and read. If that's not possible, simply place your hand on it and do your best to remember what it says:

I am an amazing woman. I am a mother. I have been through hell and back. My fight is not over. I will get through this. No one else has to understand the feelings I have, and very few can. There's a group of women spread all across this country that are here for me when others can't be, and they know, as I do, that I am an amazing woman and a wonderful mother. -Moms with Only Angel Babies

hmmmm

i wonder if giuliana will email me back? stalker or besties? :)

chocolate martini please

tonight on the menu:

chocolate martinis

girlfriends

bbq brisket

wine

potatoes

laughing

green bean bundles

music

salad

presents

turtle cheesecake

chocolate martinis

:)