courage

tysons dad wrote us the sweetest letter and had a little part in there for me telling me how strong i am going through so much this year and his hopeful thoughts for us. i was so happy he wrote that. so many people ignore everything that has happened to us when we still deal with it every day. i know how it goes though. after the loss of my parents and gparents, everyone goes on living their lives and you just feel alone. so as ive said before, i want to talk about things. dont be scared to bring it up b/c it reallly helps me and it makes me feel loved when people show their concern.

here is a post from a girl on one of my m/c groups:

So many times you hear people talk about courage. We all figure that we know what that word means but I am not sure we truly do until we see it first hand. For me, I know that our brave soldiers have courage for doing what they are doing, and I know that the firefighters, police, and many others who do great things for our lives have courage... I know that it takes courage to try new things (like starting college after being out of school for years or starting a new business) but I had never thought of myself as courageous before. I had never seen what courage really was. I hadn't been able to put a picture to the word and I think that now I have more than one picture... I have millions...

Courage is the woman who has seen such great loss but keeps moving on with life and all the things that need done on a day to day basis. Courage is the person that has held a baby in her arms that is not breathing and cried tears of loss for that child and then brought herself back up to try again to bring that precious life into this world. It is courage that is seen when you see a woman who is TTC for months and months (and years and years) on end that arrives at the baby shower for the friend who is about to have her 2nd/3rd/4th/etc child and smiles. Courage is the woman who finds red again on a trip to the bathroom and knows that this month didn't work for her but doesn't just give up but finds a way to start planning for next month. Courage is the woman who has tried so long her heart is only a shattered remnant of what it was and decides that she WILL give a child a home and love even if she cannot do it through her own womb. It is courage that brings all the wonderful women to this site and this board and it is courage that keeps us going on each day. It is courage that allows a woman who has seen such loss to be scared and excited in the same exact moment when that second line finally appears on the stick. Courage is what allows us to survive and I think that we are courage... not only for ourselves but for others...

So if you want a picture of courage... I have a simple way for you to find it. Go to your bathroom and stand in front of the mirror... take a good hard look and keep that picture with you when times are hard... because that is the picture of courage! Want more pictures of courage? Log into BBC and look through your friend's list... look through the board comments... look really hard... because those are the pictures of courage that you can call on when you can't seem to find that first picture of courage ... those other pictures of courage will lend you some of theirs...

We have more than just plain courage... we have group courage because together we are even stronger and together we can help to remind each other that our rainbow babies are out there and we are courageous!