i love you, valentine

today i was weepy (hormones i guess?). and its been a stressful few weeks so that never helps. i was on my way home from chicago today and my mind was racing. all the same songs were playing on the radio so i hit cd to see what surprise was in there. as rihanna starts singing rude boy i burst into tears (kinda funny i know). but i realized it was my 'love you boo boo' cd. tj made me this cd the day we had to go for our 2nd u/s of baby #3 to make sure it was not viable. i just worked that morning and when i came home i saw that cd there and i think chocolates or something else fabulous that made me cry. so i was thinking on my way home about how AWESOME my husband is. sometimes i dont feel deserving of such a great guy. we first 'met' a little over 3 months of my dad and gpa passing away. my life was all over the place. a few months of dating and my stepdad and gma died. how did he stay with me when i just acted like a maniac for the first few years we were together. finally we were married and i felt like i was becoming a semi-'normal' person again. then with all our pregnancy losses here we are again with a crazy dana. i know he has been through a lot this year too. he just handles it better than i do. thank God he hasnt given up on my crazy mess of a life. i am so thankful to have my special valentine. i love him so much! i just came home to 17 roses (? not sure of the odd number), a singing card, and my favorite-Riesen's! hope he likes what he got when he wakes :) off to the gala tonight! love to all of you on v-day!